I'm having the treatments that never end... Yesterday they tell me I may have to come back Monday or I'll be one treatment short. Well they called me today to see if I could come in early on Friday, my last day, and that I don't have to come back Monday. So of course I say yes, lets get this over with ASAP....
Well I get there and RIGHT before I got there the server went down and they couldn't bring anything up and I couldn't do my treatment. So now I may have to go Monday anyway. Because one treatment less may be ok, but they don't know about two. So we'll see when I get there tomorrow.
I need to stop getting so excited until it's actually over. I'm going to bed.
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Random things you may or may not know about me...
1. My favorite movie in the world is The Wizard of Oz
2. I don't like cheese
3. I love Dr. Pepper
4. I've bitten my nails since I was ten years old
5. I hate diet soda
6. I hate sweet tea
7. I don't like chinese food
8. I don't like fish
9. I love shrimp, lobster, and crab
10. I voted for the first time when I was 26 years old
11. When my kids were little one week I had 3 jobs and worked 86 hours in that week
12. My first car was a '76 Toyota Corolla
13. I had my first kid when I was 16 and my last when I was 23
14. I graduated high school at 17
15. My first job was at A&W Resturant
16. I became a grandma at 36
17. I had a hysterectomy at 36
18. I hate to fly
19. I want to go to Disneyland at Christmastime BAD
20. My birthday lands on Thanksgiving every 5 years or so
21. I failed my first behind the wheel driver's test
22. My 2nd toe on my feet are shorter than my 3rd toe
23. I can't roll my tongue (and it's inherited so I can't learn how)
24. I'm horrible at math
25. I work in the Fiscal Department at work and my title is Accounting Technician I (true story)
26. I can't stand to see blood
27. I will clean your ears with Qtips if you let me (I hate dirty ears)
28. I will pop the zits on your back
29. I love the smell of vanilla or sugar cookie candles
30. I can make cinnamon rolls from scratch
31. I hate thunder & lightening
32. I still watch MTV Real World/Road Rules challenges
33. I love to watch The Biggest Loser... while eating peach cobbler
34. I hate to wear shoes and will wear flip flops as far into the winter as I can
35. I probably own 50 pairs of flip flops (thanks Old Navy)
36. I want to go to Hawaii but probably never will (see number 18)
37. I randomly take college classes online and am working towards a degree in Public/Business Administration if I didn't have 2 jobs I would take more
38. I hate my natural hair color and have been blonde for 5 years until this year when I went dark again
39. I LOVE, literally LOVE my DVR (It's like my boyfriend)
40. I watch General Hospital
41. My favorite tv show of all time is Roseanne
42. I don't attend church but I pray. A lot! (even before the cancer)
43. My dream car is a 2003 Cadillac Escalade in Pearl White with 24" chrome rims & tires
44. I collect cows and have since I was 19 years old
45. I have a king sized bed and I sleep on one side and never even roll to the middle
46. I love my Uggs
47. I'm named after my mom's two sisters one who passed away at 19 and the other is still alive
48. My middle name is Yvonne
49. I'm a meat eating kind of girl
50. I've never owned a brand new car
51. I only have on living grandparent
52. I have one sister (she lives in Oklahoma) but two step-sisters
53. I can cook, but I hate to cook, but of course I do cook
54. The inseam on my legs is 36"
55. I don't like Mariah Carey's music
56. I can not watch Celine Dion or Jessica Simpson sing (they look like they are having seizures)
57. I am a tabloid magazine junkie I buy at least 4 a week
58. Team Aniston
59. I own every season of Friends on DVD including the season finale
60. I played fast pitch softball for 4 years
61. I don't like Jim Carey or Hillary Swank and I try to avoid their movies
62. I have not seen any Lord of The Rings movies
63. I have seen all the Harry Potter movies but read none of the books
64. Asprin makes me sick to my stomach
65. I hate my freckles
66. I love purses, especially Dooney & Bourke
67. I ate In & Out Burger for the first time 3 years ago
68. I used to crave ice and I had to have it 24/7 until my hysterectomy since I'm not anemic anymore the craving went away
69. I don't care much for chocolate but I do love Peanut M&M's
70. I like ice cream in the winter but not the summer, it melts too quick
71. My favorite ice cream is Cold Stone Cake Batter
72. All of my kids went to the same high school I did
73. I love chcolate chip cookie dough and will eat more dough than I make cookies
74. My money has to face the same way and be from smallest to largest denomination in my wallet
75. I hate the way lotion feels on my hands
76. I never wore braces but always wanted them
77. I like showers not baths
78. I make THE best chicken parmasan in the world
79. Mice and rats freak me out
80. I can walk into a pitch dark house no problem but I'm scared in the dark outside
81. I can stay in a squatted position for a long time and keep my balance
82. I don't like Gatorade
83. I drove from California to South Carolina in 50 hours
84. I have no sense of direction and will get lost coming home if I take a wrong turn (seriously)
85. I don't like to swim or be in the water
86. I like the flavor of food cooked with onions but I hate to eat the actual onions
87. I still put olives on my fingers like I did when I was a kid
88. I have 2 birthmarks
89. I used to have my tongue and my nose pierced
90. My favorite baseball team is the New York Mets and I would love to see them play at home
91. I'm usually not hungry when I'm done cooking because I eat while I cook
92. I blow out my candles on November 25th
93. I'm claustrophobic
94. I didn't like Halloween as a child all I wanted was bubble gum
95. I would rather clean the toilet than fold clean clothes
96. I got a 2nd job temporarily for extra money and have been there for 5 years
97. The girls at my 2nd job call me Maryfranks (one word) Idk why they just always have.
98. I can text perfectly without looking at my phone
99. I can't fall asleep without the tv on
100. Once I fall asleep I'll wake up in the middle of the night and then go to bed even if it's 5:30 a.m. and my alarm goes off at 5:45 a.m.
Well that's it, I know it's boring but once I got started I couldn't stop. LOL
2. I don't like cheese
3. I love Dr. Pepper
4. I've bitten my nails since I was ten years old
5. I hate diet soda
6. I hate sweet tea
7. I don't like chinese food
8. I don't like fish
9. I love shrimp, lobster, and crab
10. I voted for the first time when I was 26 years old
11. When my kids were little one week I had 3 jobs and worked 86 hours in that week
12. My first car was a '76 Toyota Corolla
13. I had my first kid when I was 16 and my last when I was 23
14. I graduated high school at 17
15. My first job was at A&W Resturant
16. I became a grandma at 36
17. I had a hysterectomy at 36
18. I hate to fly
19. I want to go to Disneyland at Christmastime BAD
20. My birthday lands on Thanksgiving every 5 years or so
21. I failed my first behind the wheel driver's test
22. My 2nd toe on my feet are shorter than my 3rd toe
23. I can't roll my tongue (and it's inherited so I can't learn how)
24. I'm horrible at math
25. I work in the Fiscal Department at work and my title is Accounting Technician I (true story)
26. I can't stand to see blood
27. I will clean your ears with Qtips if you let me (I hate dirty ears)
28. I will pop the zits on your back
29. I love the smell of vanilla or sugar cookie candles
30. I can make cinnamon rolls from scratch
31. I hate thunder & lightening
32. I still watch MTV Real World/Road Rules challenges
33. I love to watch The Biggest Loser... while eating peach cobbler
34. I hate to wear shoes and will wear flip flops as far into the winter as I can
35. I probably own 50 pairs of flip flops (thanks Old Navy)
36. I want to go to Hawaii but probably never will (see number 18)
37. I randomly take college classes online and am working towards a degree in Public/Business Administration if I didn't have 2 jobs I would take more
38. I hate my natural hair color and have been blonde for 5 years until this year when I went dark again
39. I LOVE, literally LOVE my DVR (It's like my boyfriend)
40. I watch General Hospital
41. My favorite tv show of all time is Roseanne
42. I don't attend church but I pray. A lot! (even before the cancer)
43. My dream car is a 2003 Cadillac Escalade in Pearl White with 24" chrome rims & tires
44. I collect cows and have since I was 19 years old
45. I have a king sized bed and I sleep on one side and never even roll to the middle
46. I love my Uggs
47. I'm named after my mom's two sisters one who passed away at 19 and the other is still alive
48. My middle name is Yvonne
49. I'm a meat eating kind of girl
50. I've never owned a brand new car
51. I only have on living grandparent
52. I have one sister (she lives in Oklahoma) but two step-sisters
53. I can cook, but I hate to cook, but of course I do cook
54. The inseam on my legs is 36"
55. I don't like Mariah Carey's music
56. I can not watch Celine Dion or Jessica Simpson sing (they look like they are having seizures)
57. I am a tabloid magazine junkie I buy at least 4 a week
58. Team Aniston
59. I own every season of Friends on DVD including the season finale
60. I played fast pitch softball for 4 years
61. I don't like Jim Carey or Hillary Swank and I try to avoid their movies
62. I have not seen any Lord of The Rings movies
63. I have seen all the Harry Potter movies but read none of the books
64. Asprin makes me sick to my stomach
65. I hate my freckles
66. I love purses, especially Dooney & Bourke
67. I ate In & Out Burger for the first time 3 years ago
68. I used to crave ice and I had to have it 24/7 until my hysterectomy since I'm not anemic anymore the craving went away
69. I don't care much for chocolate but I do love Peanut M&M's
70. I like ice cream in the winter but not the summer, it melts too quick
71. My favorite ice cream is Cold Stone Cake Batter
72. All of my kids went to the same high school I did
73. I love chcolate chip cookie dough and will eat more dough than I make cookies
74. My money has to face the same way and be from smallest to largest denomination in my wallet
75. I hate the way lotion feels on my hands
76. I never wore braces but always wanted them
77. I like showers not baths
78. I make THE best chicken parmasan in the world
79. Mice and rats freak me out
80. I can walk into a pitch dark house no problem but I'm scared in the dark outside
81. I can stay in a squatted position for a long time and keep my balance
82. I don't like Gatorade
83. I drove from California to South Carolina in 50 hours
84. I have no sense of direction and will get lost coming home if I take a wrong turn (seriously)
85. I don't like to swim or be in the water
86. I like the flavor of food cooked with onions but I hate to eat the actual onions
87. I still put olives on my fingers like I did when I was a kid
88. I have 2 birthmarks
89. I used to have my tongue and my nose pierced
90. My favorite baseball team is the New York Mets and I would love to see them play at home
91. I'm usually not hungry when I'm done cooking because I eat while I cook
92. I blow out my candles on November 25th
93. I'm claustrophobic
94. I didn't like Halloween as a child all I wanted was bubble gum
95. I would rather clean the toilet than fold clean clothes
96. I got a 2nd job temporarily for extra money and have been there for 5 years
97. The girls at my 2nd job call me Maryfranks (one word) Idk why they just always have.
98. I can text perfectly without looking at my phone
99. I can't fall asleep without the tv on
100. Once I fall asleep I'll wake up in the middle of the night and then go to bed even if it's 5:30 a.m. and my alarm goes off at 5:45 a.m.
Well that's it, I know it's boring but once I got started I couldn't stop. LOL
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Peeling off...
I put my antibiotic cream on my skin this morning and as I rubbed it on my skin came off. It's icky... But it really is like a sunburn when it peels after one. One spot hurts but the rest of it is just pink. Not to give tmi, but my nipple has been itching like a mother... That is something new because usually it's the actual boob or under where my bra goes.
On a good note I'm starting my last week of treatments tomorrow. I won't be done on Wednesday like originally planned, but I will be done Friday. So I should be happy, done is done.
Yay me!!!
On a good note I'm starting my last week of treatments tomorrow. I won't be done on Wednesday like originally planned, but I will be done Friday. So I should be happy, done is done.
Yay me!!!
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Crossed Lines...
Grrrrrr!!! I haven't had internet all day long at home. I know I don't always get mail from actual "people" but I always get spam and crap mail... Well I thought it was strange today I didn't even get that.
Some lines got crossed and so my mail wasn't taking any all day long, all though it would send it. Stupid. But it's fixed and running now.
Sad how we rely on all this technology to get us through the day. LOL
Some lines got crossed and so my mail wasn't taking any all day long, all though it would send it. Stupid. But it's fixed and running now.
Sad how we rely on all this technology to get us through the day. LOL
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
That's what I get for being excited...
Well I always see the dr. on Tuesday before my treatment so he can check my skin. Well not such good news today. My skin is too irritated and the original lotion they gave me isn't keeping it hydrated enough. It's really red and peeling pretty badly under my breast, right where my bra goes...
So I had my treatment today and then no more for the rest of the week and he prescribed me some cream to put on it twice a day to help clear it up a little bit. It has been bothering me a bit (ok a lot) and it itches like you would NOT believe. And I can't just walk around scratching my boob all day, plus it hurts to mess with it too much.
So I will skip for 3 days, with the weekend that makes it 5 and then I have to go all next week. So instead of being done on Wednesday, I will be done on Halloween. So while it's one less treatment total, it's 2 days longer than planned.
But on a good note, I just had THE best homemade chicken soup for dinner tonight, in my very clean and shiny house. Thank you SO MUCH Jessica and Norma... Well I'm going to watch Dancing With The Stars while eating me some yummy chocolate chip cookies with milk (also courtesy of Jessica) and then head off to bed. I'm really tired today....
So I had my treatment today and then no more for the rest of the week and he prescribed me some cream to put on it twice a day to help clear it up a little bit. It has been bothering me a bit (ok a lot) and it itches like you would NOT believe. And I can't just walk around scratching my boob all day, plus it hurts to mess with it too much.
So I will skip for 3 days, with the weekend that makes it 5 and then I have to go all next week. So instead of being done on Wednesday, I will be done on Halloween. So while it's one less treatment total, it's 2 days longer than planned.
But on a good note, I just had THE best homemade chicken soup for dinner tonight, in my very clean and shiny house. Thank you SO MUCH Jessica and Norma... Well I'm going to watch Dancing With The Stars while eating me some yummy chocolate chip cookies with milk (also courtesy of Jessica) and then head off to bed. I'm really tired today....
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Something besides cancer for once....
The farmer and his wife... Jordan was not thrilled.... LOL
Kaden at the start of our day, he was excited to go see the pumpkins.
Kaden at the end of our day, he was not excited to leave Chuck E Cheese
Like my magnet? Me too! Thanks Trish!!!
Joey and Sarah at Joey's birthday dinner.... Well my tummy issues are pretty much gone and I had an enjoyable weekend. I took my grandson to the pumpkin patch and a birthday party at Chuck E Cheese on Saturday and then on Sunday we went to eat for my son Joey's 19th birthday.
If you have never been to Texas Roadhouse, I HIGHLY suggest you try it ASAP. The first time I had it was in South Carolina and I'm so happy to have one close enough to travel to. Good pick for dinner Joey. :o)
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Stomach problems...
Well I've been home from work for 3 days with stomach problems. I came home Monday night from Penney's dizzy and with a pain in my stomach. Well I must have some bug, because it won't go away. I feel like I'm being stabbed in the center of my stomach. I went to the dr. yesterday and they drew blood and I have to go back today for a ultrasound to see if it's gall stones. I haven't eaten since Monday afternoon and I'm STARVING...
I can't keep anything in or down, including water. Everytime I try to drink something that pain comes back so sharp that I can't stand it. Last night Joey made me some chicken soup with crackers but sure enough it came back out immediately. I have been going to my radiation because I don't want to add any time to it. October 29th is my last day and I can add days to the end if I need to but I don't want to. My skin is getting so irritated, the only good thing about being home for the past 3 days is I can keep my bra off and just keep the lotion on my skin...
I've got to get better because I really don't have time to be off sick and I work on Saturday morning and I promised my grandson I would take him to the pumpkin patch on Saturday after work. Plus Joey's 19th birthday is on Sunday and I'm sure he'll want to go eat or something and I want to be able to go.
Well, I'm going to lie down until time to head out... I feel like crap!!!
I can't keep anything in or down, including water. Everytime I try to drink something that pain comes back so sharp that I can't stand it. Last night Joey made me some chicken soup with crackers but sure enough it came back out immediately. I have been going to my radiation because I don't want to add any time to it. October 29th is my last day and I can add days to the end if I need to but I don't want to. My skin is getting so irritated, the only good thing about being home for the past 3 days is I can keep my bra off and just keep the lotion on my skin...
I've got to get better because I really don't have time to be off sick and I work on Saturday morning and I promised my grandson I would take him to the pumpkin patch on Saturday after work. Plus Joey's 19th birthday is on Sunday and I'm sure he'll want to go eat or something and I want to be able to go.
Well, I'm going to lie down until time to head out... I feel like crap!!!
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Week 4, over 1/2 way done...
Well I'm coming up on week 4 of radiation starting tomorrow. That means I've completed 15 treatments and I have 13 left to go. I REALLY over did it this weekend. Friday I went to my treatment early in the morning instead of the afternoon because I went to the New Kids On The Block concert in San Jose Friday night (more on that with EXCELLENT photos coming up)... I didn't get home until 2 a.m. and then I had trouble sleeping even though I was exhausted.
Saturday morning I was sleeping so soundly and got woke up with my cell phone going off, who texts at 9:00 a.m. on a Saturday ;o)... So I got up and had to get ready for work in a bit to be there at 11... I was so anxious waiting for the clock to hit 3 so I could leave (anxiety has been happening a lot more lately). Finally 3 came and I had to go run an errand and then I promised my friend Renee that I would go to a Quincenera with her that her son was in because she didn't want to go alone... What was I thinking? I went to the Quince but I didn't stay long because I was tired, my eyes burned, and I started getting dizzy. So feeling bad about it I left after about 2 hours. She understood of course, but I still feel bad abandoning her. I went home and just rested.
Sunday I was off work and I sat around the house all day long. How the hell can I do that when there is so much to be done around here?! I did make it to the grocery store and I finally cooked dinner, but there are so many other things I need to do, I just couldn't force myself to do it. And it's back to work tomorrow so I'm really kicking myself. I can't wait for all this to be done so I can get my energy back. The fatigue is beyond words, I just can't explain it to anyone. It's something you don't get until you feel it, and believe me you don't want to feel like this.
Well I'm off to go do the dishes and rest before bed. Have a good week!!!
Saturday morning I was sleeping so soundly and got woke up with my cell phone going off, who texts at 9:00 a.m. on a Saturday ;o)... So I got up and had to get ready for work in a bit to be there at 11... I was so anxious waiting for the clock to hit 3 so I could leave (anxiety has been happening a lot more lately). Finally 3 came and I had to go run an errand and then I promised my friend Renee that I would go to a Quincenera with her that her son was in because she didn't want to go alone... What was I thinking? I went to the Quince but I didn't stay long because I was tired, my eyes burned, and I started getting dizzy. So feeling bad about it I left after about 2 hours. She understood of course, but I still feel bad abandoning her. I went home and just rested.
Sunday I was off work and I sat around the house all day long. How the hell can I do that when there is so much to be done around here?! I did make it to the grocery store and I finally cooked dinner, but there are so many other things I need to do, I just couldn't force myself to do it. And it's back to work tomorrow so I'm really kicking myself. I can't wait for all this to be done so I can get my energy back. The fatigue is beyond words, I just can't explain it to anyone. It's something you don't get until you feel it, and believe me you don't want to feel like this.
Well I'm off to go do the dishes and rest before bed. Have a good week!!!
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Two weeks down... 18 more treatments to go.
Yeah, I'm done with the second week of radiation and it's true what they said, the first week was a breeze, the 2nd... Not so much. I'm exhausted. I can't do what I usually do and I can't express how much I HATE that. I don't have time to be tired, I don't have time to be sick, I don't have time for this mess. I know I have to do it and of course I am going to, but I've had to cut back my hours at Penney's and I just feel like that is letting this defeat me. I will not be defeated!!! I'll get back again soon. Thanks for coming to my pity party, I'm sorry but there is no cake or favors. LOL
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