That's what I get for being excited...

Well I always see the dr. on Tuesday before my treatment so he can check my skin. Well not such good news today. My skin is too irritated and the original lotion they gave me isn't keeping it hydrated enough. It's really red and peeling pretty badly under my breast, right where my bra goes...

So I had my treatment today and then no more for the rest of the week and he prescribed me some cream to put on it twice a day to help clear it up a little bit. It has been bothering me a bit (ok a lot) and it itches like you would NOT believe. And I can't just walk around scratching my boob all day, plus it hurts to mess with it too much.

So I will skip for 3 days, with the weekend that makes it 5 and then I have to go all next week. So instead of being done on Wednesday, I will be done on Halloween. So while it's one less treatment total, it's 2 days longer than planned.

But on a good note, I just had THE best homemade chicken soup for dinner tonight, in my very clean and shiny house. Thank you SO MUCH Jessica and Norma... Well I'm going to watch Dancing With The Stars while eating me some yummy chocolate chip cookies with milk (also courtesy of Jessica) and then head off to bed. I'm really tired today....

Something besides cancer for once....

The farmer and his wife... Jordan was not thrilled.... LOL
Kaden at the start of our day, he was excited to go see the pumpkins.
Kaden at the end of our day, he was not excited to leave Chuck E Cheese
Like my magnet? Me too! Thanks Trish!!!
Joey and Sarah at Joey's birthday dinner....

Well my tummy issues are pretty much gone and I had an enjoyable weekend. I took my grandson to the pumpkin patch and a birthday party at Chuck E Cheese on Saturday and then on Sunday we went to eat for my son Joey's 19th birthday.





If you have never been to Texas Roadhouse, I HIGHLY suggest you try it ASAP. The first time I had it was in South Carolina and I'm so happy to have one close enough to travel to. Good pick for dinner Joey. :o)

Stomach problems...

Well I've been home from work for 3 days with stomach problems. I came home Monday night from Penney's dizzy and with a pain in my stomach. Well I must have some bug, because it won't go away. I feel like I'm being stabbed in the center of my stomach. I went to the dr. yesterday and they drew blood and I have to go back today for a ultrasound to see if it's gall stones. I haven't eaten since Monday afternoon and I'm STARVING...

I can't keep anything in or down, including water. Everytime I try to drink something that pain comes back so sharp that I can't stand it. Last night Joey made me some chicken soup with crackers but sure enough it came back out immediately. I have been going to my radiation because I don't want to add any time to it. October 29th is my last day and I can add days to the end if I need to but I don't want to. My skin is getting so irritated, the only good thing about being home for the past 3 days is I can keep my bra off and just keep the lotion on my skin...

I've got to get better because I really don't have time to be off sick and I work on Saturday morning and I promised my grandson I would take him to the pumpkin patch on Saturday after work. Plus Joey's 19th birthday is on Sunday and I'm sure he'll want to go eat or something and I want to be able to go.

Well, I'm going to lie down until time to head out... I feel like crap!!!

Week 4, over 1/2 way done...

Well I'm coming up on week 4 of radiation starting tomorrow. That means I've completed 15 treatments and I have 13 left to go. I REALLY over did it this weekend. Friday I went to my treatment early in the morning instead of the afternoon because I went to the New Kids On The Block concert in San Jose Friday night (more on that with EXCELLENT photos coming up)... I didn't get home until 2 a.m. and then I had trouble sleeping even though I was exhausted.

Saturday morning I was sleeping so soundly and got woke up with my cell phone going off, who texts at 9:00 a.m. on a Saturday ;o)... So I got up and had to get ready for work in a bit to be there at 11... I was so anxious waiting for the clock to hit 3 so I could leave (anxiety has been happening a lot more lately). Finally 3 came and I had to go run an errand and then I promised my friend Renee that I would go to a Quincenera with her that her son was in because she didn't want to go alone... What was I thinking? I went to the Quince but I didn't stay long because I was tired, my eyes burned, and I started getting dizzy. So feeling bad about it I left after about 2 hours. She understood of course, but I still feel bad abandoning her. I went home and just rested.

Sunday I was off work and I sat around the house all day long. How the hell can I do that when there is so much to be done around here?! I did make it to the grocery store and I finally cooked dinner, but there are so many other things I need to do, I just couldn't force myself to do it. And it's back to work tomorrow so I'm really kicking myself. I can't wait for all this to be done so I can get my energy back. The fatigue is beyond words, I just can't explain it to anyone. It's something you don't get until you feel it, and believe me you don't want to feel like this.

Well I'm off to go do the dishes and rest before bed. Have a good week!!!

Two weeks down... 18 more treatments to go.

Yeah, I'm done with the second week of radiation and it's true what they said, the first week was a breeze, the 2nd... Not so much. I'm exhausted. I can't do what I usually do and I can't express how much I HATE that. I don't have time to be tired, I don't have time to be sick, I don't have time for this mess. I know I have to do it and of course I am going to, but I've had to cut back my hours at Penney's and I just feel like that is letting this defeat me. I will not be defeated!!! I'll get back again soon. Thanks for coming to my pity party, I'm sorry but there is no cake or favors. LOL

Radiation Part 2....

Well I made it through my first week of radiation. Like everyone said it was pretty easy. Monday was a breeze, they were waiting for me to get there and I was in and out before 5 p.m. (my daily appointment is at 4:45), Tuesday was another story, they were behind so I waited with some other patients and I finally got out right before 6 p.m. Next came Wednesday which again was pretty much a piece of cake. Oh, next came Thursday (if it seems like it's getting tedious you would be correct), in and out. Then there was glorious Fiday!!! But it wasn't so glorious and that's all on me.

Every day is two radiologists they rotate late days I guess. They are actually very happy to see me because I'm their last appointment of the day. Friday however was unconfortable for me. It was the two guys' turn to do my treatment. Now I know it's all medical and they are very professional, it's not like they are "checking out my rack", BUT, all the same it was a little tense for me. I'm sure I'll get used to it, I just have to work through it.

I get off work at 4:30 and head to my appointment. I change into a hospital gown and then wait for them to call me in. My actual treatments consist of me getting into position on the table on top of my mold and a sheet, they position me and line up my tattoos with the rays and then they leave the room. Then this big huge machine starts on the left side makes a humming noise and works its way in a 1/2 circle around to my other side (which is my affected side) and hums for a while longer and then they come in and tell me to put my arms down and I'm done. I just go get dressed and head home or to work, whichever the case may be.

Well I can't believe I got through one week but there are 4 1/2 more to go. My last treatment day is October 29th. I thought it would just fly by, but not so much. But obviously I've got to get through it and I'll be so happy when I'm done.

Call Joe Francis and Girls Gone Wild!!!

I went for my simulation for radiation and x-rays today since I start actual radiation on Monday. They had to make sure all my tattoos and stuff lined up and that I was positioned right.

This consisted of lying on a table with my hospital gown pulled down just below my breasts and 3 technicians drawing on me and moving me and x-raying me. They also had to take some photos of me.

At this point I've flashed so many medical personnel I'm not sure if GGW would be that much difference. LOL Although my "girls" aren't quite as firm, and I'm not quite as "shapely" as the girls in those videos.

I just hope those pictures never get out to the public. I'll never be president then. LOL